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Nov. 5th, 2008

flower

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So in an attempt to regain some sort of control over my B/P that has been totally out of control, I have decided to give myself one day a week to b/p. So that day is Tuesday, and Tuesday was yesterday. I am hoping that this will keep me from B/P all the time every day. So as of now it is a test I am not going to stick to it if my weight does not continue to drop. At this point I was 113.2 the morning of my binge and I was 117.2 the next morning, I am going to weigh myself tomorrow morning and that will be the decision maker. If I go right back down and only have to be at this weight for one day then it will be fine I think that it will hopefully trick my metabolism too. I ate a ton and I am pretty sure that the weight will come off today during my restricting, I will let you know tomorrow.

~MM~

Nov. 3rd, 2008

flower

The Weekend:


Wow my weekend went really well. I manage to stay very strict on myself and had no problem restricting the last three days. My current weight is 113 even, I really think I would like to drop that 13 pounds and get to 100. I though 110 would be good but 100, that will be perfect. So I am trying to decide if Tuesdays or thrusdays are going to be my binge days that is when my husband is at school and it makes it very easy for me to ensure I have most of the night to get it all up. Plan is for 400 calories today, should be fine. 

~MM~

Oct. 31st, 2008

flower

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Please tell me how to (cut) things so that they are linked, does that make sense, lol.!!
flower

Today


I am feeling very motivated today, my fabulous friend is helping me to stay strong and I have yet to eat today, I am back on track and resisting all that crappy halloween candy. I will not give in today and I will not b/p, I can not do it again, besides my throat hurts. I feel strongly that I can do this, I will be 100 pounds by the end of November is it kills me. That is plenty of time.

~MM~

Oct. 30th, 2008

flower

strength


I am not going to binge today, I am nopt going to binge again this weekend and I am not going to binge next week. I feel so great when I am fasting and restricting and I feel like hell when I am binging so it is a no brainer, right?? I have to do this for myelf and I have to have control. I am going to regain it no matter what, instead of feeling like a failure I have to start over.  Right now I am going to slowly eat some old fashioned ostmeal, no milk and no additives. I had a small banana early this morning and I have a kiwi for this afternoon. I can do this and I will!

~MM~

Oct. 28th, 2008

flower

Frustrated


It seems like the second I came off the cleanse I looked in the mirror and had gained weight. I am so torna nd confused, I want to eat and I know that because I work out I should eat and that there is a very fine line to walk, but I am so scared and I look in the mirror and feel disgusting, what is wrong with me , why do I think this way and why can't I just eat like a normal person. Then I start thinking f-it and b/p. ugh it is a viscous cycle...

~MM~

Oct. 27th, 2008

flower

Just thinking

Oh my coming off the cleanse, I hate it, I hate introducing food back into my life, it makes me feel like such a loser. So of course I binged, I chose to do it on the weekend so I would have plenty of purging opportunities and I did, so I don't think I did to much damage as far as weight gain is concerned. I will be restricting calories this week and if I tell myself I can binge this weekend if I have to it makes the restricting easier, OMG I am &*#%ed up. LOL

~MM~
Good site for calorie tracking
http://www.livestrong.com/profile/morganmaybe/
flower

My channel, it's a little like Therapy

Oct. 24th, 2008

flower

Master Cleanse Day 11

So technically today is the day I can begin to come off the cleanse. That means that I can introduce orange juice into my day, this gets your tummy ready to digest foods again. So really I am still on a juice fast at least one more day. I stopped and picked up some light OJ on the way in this morning, only 50 cal instead of 120 cal! Big difference, I have still not decided if I will start eating raw fruits and veggies tomorrow or not I may hold off, I am just happy to have OJ and a new flavor finally. So the final MC weigh in goes like this:
Start date Tuesday, October 14th, 2008

Day 1: 128.4
Day 2: 122.6
Day 3: 
119.0
Day 4: 
117.4
Day 5: 115.2
Day 6: 114.2
DAY 7: 113.2
DAY 8: 113.8

Days 9:113.8

Day 10: 112.2

Day 11: 110.4

today’s date Friday, October 24, 2008

 

That is a total loss of 18 pounds even. Because I am going to be drinking OJ rather than just my lemonade, today will be the last day I weigh myself in the morning. My weight will surely fluctuate with the addition of new things after so much time so I do not want to freak out. I am going to go back to weighing once a week and by how I feel in my clothes. Thank you to all who supported me during this fast and followed my story… Bye for now

 

~MM~


Oct. 23rd, 2008

flower

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Absolutley another great day, I am really feeling good. Not quite sure of my plan on coming off, maybe tomorrow, maybe over the weekend. This morning, before my SWF, my weight was 112.2, yay! That means that since day one at 128.4 to day 10 at 112.2 I have lost 16.2 lbs. Feeling good, energetic and happy. Stay tuned...

~MM~

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